Long Holiday

After today. its gonna be a long holiday in Malaysia, due to Hari Raya and Deepavali.. It is so nice. Well while in Thailand, its a public holiday on 23rd of October 2006. It is known to the Thais as Chulalongkorn Day, a day to commemorate King Chulalongkorn (Rama V), the anniversary of his death. So we do have a long holiday as well, just not as long as it is in Malaysia.

Hai, what to do during this weekend? Sure its gonna be a long boring weekend. My roomate, CLK invited a few of us to join him, and a few of our client's credit card users for a trip to Rayong. So far he said there is 4 Thai gals, CLK himself & Pang. I dont have the mood to join man. Sorry and thanks for initing anyway. What is there to do in Rayong? I will find something to do for this weekend.

Before this, Mr Lam receive a flyer for an invitation for a 'mysterious' event. Well it is not that mysterious anyway. just a special event organise by Johhny Walker entitled Mystery Of The Black Mansion (for its Black Label i guess). It shows a webpage for registration. So we did and registered and see if we are lucky enough to get invited for tonight's event. haha, by yesterday, we reveive a SMS msg frm them, saying 'due to large response frm the public.... bla bla bla' and says it is full and they hope we could join them for the next event.. guess that lady luck is not on our side. but on the bright side, we could save some buck and keep us away from liqour n ciggies.

Sigh my darn leather shoe is giving me troubles from the very first day i bought it. That darn shoe lace will untie itself frequently cos it is 'slippery'. I wonder how could a shoemaker like 'doggy' brand will have this kinda problem. sigh darn big headache..

after today's evening, its GONNA BE A LONG AND BORING WEEKEND HERE...!!!!!

Bad Tummy....

have a few freakin bad days.. today's the worst.. hv uneasy stomach for a few days.. guess i hv to take lots of fruits and veges, god...

it rained just a short while at 11pm.. at last it rained.. well been taking umbrella to office everyday and it rained at nite.. darn it.. gotta tuck in early today.. bad day today, tired n exhausted..

ABBA

Hmm, anyone heard of ABBA? Well it must have ring some bells huh? ABBA is a Sweedish group from 70's & 80's, joinning the ranks of worlds greatest singers/bands. It consist of 4 memebers, namely Benny Andersson, Agnetha Fältskog, Anni-Frid "Frida", Björn Ulvaeus.

According to some sources Abba is actually the name of a popular fish-canning company in Sweden. Hmm, smells fishy in here.. haha, just joking.. Since the fish canners were more or less unknown outside Sweden, so the name stuck on. ABBA is also an acronym from each of the member's name: Agnetha, Björn, Benny and Anni-Frid. Abba is "father" in Hebrew but the band claims that to be unintentional. The first B in the logo version of the name was reversed on the band's promotional material from 1976 onwards.

A few of their most popular songs were
Fernando
Mamma Mia
I Have A Dream (sung by Westlife as well)
Take A Chance On Me
Waterloo
Dancing Queen (sung by A-Teens as well)

If there is any of you who have a more complete list of 'hits' from ABBA, do leave me a message ya.. There is just too much to say about ABBA ^_^. For more more information about ABBA, click here

Right, here is ABBA - Dancing Queen. Enjoy

Sound Of Silence - Simon & Garfunkel

Hello, darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision
That was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
Beneath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share...
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools," said I, "you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows."
"Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed in the wells of silence.

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said: "The words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls,
And whisper'd in the sound of silence.

Today's Activities

Yes, today... Woke up late and went to gym for a jog.. went with my roomate, good jog but tired and sleepy after that.. saw our colleague Ms Lai and her roommate, Lillian. Later me and my roommate went for breakfast.. sigh really getting BORED with the food frm the restaurant.. its rice, green curry, french fries etc.. hmm, really bored.. today's spaghetti is sour.. what to do next? get back to room & wait for chat.. but the 1 i am waiting for is not in for so long, so rest..
sent msg, no reply for half a day.. worried what is wrong.. what had happen.. why wanna worry la?

went down to walk for awhile to buy things, and took bread spread with ice cream for 10 baht..
then played ping pong wit another colleague before our fren, Mr Pisit called us to join him for dinner.. yeah we are late when we reach there and resulted Mr Pisit to wait for 45 minutes.. Well we are sorry Mr Pisit.. hope u enjoy the dinner ;)

Now we are back at our own place.. sight 1 more nite before the clock shows 12am... Monday, work day... hai... life oh life... gd nite

Writing Something Silly In Here

so many of us, waiting in the line,
just to get a glimpse of You & take You for a joyride,
my time has come & soon our joyride is over,
Hours become Seconds when our Hands meet,
Seconds become Hours when when our Hands are apart,
but Time stopped when My hand no longer finds Yours,

Silence & Loneliness pays Me a visit,
and soon, I am inviting Memories,
Memories brings Cheers & Jeers along,
Tears came rushing to me when Memories tells too much,
Tears came rushing to me when I could not accept Truth,
Tears came rushing to me when I know something is Growing,
Tears came rushing to me when I know Time is not by my side,
Tears came rushing to me when I know Chance is leaving me,
Tears came rushing to me when I know Fate is shining at others
Tears is my friend, but Tears cannot stay forever,
I know Tears will come back when I needed him the most,
I cannot give Tears to others, I would rather keep Tears close to me,
I guess I am comparable to Greedy..

I think about it every Day & Night,
If I ever find your hands again,
Or will I just hold on to PC's Mouse,
my Heart is already open & locked,
I have kept a part of You in Me,
and I wish I could keep every remaining pieces of You,

Time is a powerful decider in life..
appreciate Time, and Time will reward u

~Cheers~
^_^

The Calling - Whenever You Will Go

The Calling is a band formed in Los Angeles, California. This song Whenever You Will Go is taken frm the album Camino Palmero.
MV after the jump



So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a greater wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone could you make it on your own.

*CHORUS
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a greater wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
who can bring me back to you

*CHORUS HERE*

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

*CHORUS HERE*

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

p/s: Courtesy of www.sing365.com

MLTR Anyone?

MLTR or Michael Learns To Rock, is a Danish group/band. It consists of Jascha Richter (lead vocalist & pianist), drummer Kåre Wanscher, guitarist Mikkel Lentz, bass and guitarist Søren Madsen. Jascha Richter is also a talented composer whereby most of the songs are composed & written by him.. The group is form in the year 1988 and in the year 2000, Søren Madsen leaves the group to pursue a solo career.. But MLTR lives on with the three remaining artist.. There are very popular in Asia and Europe.

They are my favourite artist to date and their songs is never a dull moment.. I remember when I am small, I borrowed a tape frm my classmate, if memory serves me, it is a Now! That's What I Call Music.. And one of the song is frm MLTR 'I'm Gonna Be Around'.. I was just a Form 2 kid (Secondary 2), with no money to buy an original version of the tape, so i borrowed it frm a classmate and planned to record JUST that song..We are poor that time, with no proper recording radio, no PC, no internet and so on.. so i used a old radio which is half broken and use a good one to record the song, by playing it with a old radio and the good one is used to record.. very uncanny way huh? haha...

Well this is the list of MLTR songs that I admired the most..

• Paint My Love
• Sleeping Child
• The Actor
• That's Why You Go Away
• 25 Minutes
• Wild Women
• Blue Night
• I'm Gonna Be Around
• You Took My Heart Away
• Take Me To Your Heart
• Out Of The Blue
• Breaking My Heart
• Crazy Dreams
• How Many Hours
• Breaking The Rules
• Someday
• Out Of The Blue
• Complicated Heart
• I Still Carry On

I like the MV That's Why You Go Away, with black & white movie clips in between and a few pop ups of choruses..

Everyone Have Their 1st Time....

yeah everyone have their first time... 1st time is always the best and sweetest.. once u have ur first time, i am sure the memory will last a whole lifetime.. how about those who already have their first time, then 2nd time, then 3rd and so on? how is it? what is the difference? will 2nd, 3rd, or even 4th time is forever sweeter or more memorable than their first? hmm i am sure different people will have diffrent opinions and feels differently..

any comments? Complimentary MV after the jump (光良 - 第一次)

Youtube taken over by Google

Yes it is.. Google takes over YouTube, a popular video sharing website, for a whooping $1.65 billion... hm i wonder what kind of direction is Google gonna force on YouTube.. It says that Google will still retain all of YouTube's employee, including YouTube's founder, Chad Hurley & Steve Chen..
what will happen to Google Video? haha, maybe we will never get to see Google Video appearing anymore anytime soon..

What Is In Store For Today?!

good gracious, it is freaking sleepy at this time of the day... coffee wont do any good.. jus have a short so-called siesta for a mere 15mins after lunch.. went to lunch early today as our colleague, Mr Lam is going back today.. so I am back to office earlier & hv a nap.. ZzZzZzZ

actually planned to send a gtalk msg to Ms Angela asking where is my friend, cos she is not in office yet.. jus afraid that she is not well since she mentioned she hv cold & hot the nite before.. but then, Ms Angela's status is away for lunch.. so just keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.. well it pays off to know that she is fined when she prompt me a simple msg.. that is a kinda relieving..

right, here are 2 more MV which i listened & watch this morning.. both of them are from Eason Chan (陳奕迅).. 1st one is 明年今日 and the 2nd is 十面埋伏.. ^_^

Today, is as late as ever

Aw woke up very late today at 815am... nah no need to rush, jus normal routine and im up and moving at 9am.. so here i am now in office, at 940am... luckily, there is abundance of biscuits that i have stocked up.. yeah, almost forget about a nice cup of tea.. yes tea, not coffee.. coffee maybe in the afternoon, ^_^ dont wanna get too freakin sleepy or drowsy later.. u can say it is everyone's saviour during sleepy hours.. gotta work now and crack some biscuits..

~hv a nice day~

Last Post For The Night

Well another 1 and the last 1 for today.. hope all of u enjoy the MTV i have posted earlier.. touching MV..

Well had mango this afternoon, and to hell with it, i seldom get good mangoes.. its sooooo sour.. haha but i like sour mangoes.. but in the end i cant finish it as it is really too sour for me to consume..

As of now, I am listening Guang Liang's Yue Ding (Commitment/Promise).. Hm, gal gal is still in office looking after her customer's batch, all 14 of them.. sigh... I do really hope everything is fine there.. that is still the least of my concern.. Mr Low is there.. sigh if he is not, she is not safe.. hai, I am all lonely here, with my roomate went out to his colleague's room.. quite, cold and lonely.. bla bla.. sleep early maybe, tomorrow i have a big task in hand.. solving a few error logs in 1 day.. it is an important thing.. if not sure my PM is gonna shove something up my @ss..

sigining off now and wait for gal gal to finish her things.. bless everyone and hope everyone will have a very good night sleep..... ZzZzZzZ

MTV & Song

This is the MV from Guang Liang.. It is a nice song, but the MV is much more touching than the song itself.. Hope everyone enjoys it ^_^




this is another of Guang Liang's song Yue Ding.. Nice & touching.. a much better MV than the previous 1.. almost make me cry man..




This MV is from Leo Ku.. There is another version that he sang duet with Vivian Chow, which is much better.. In this MV, he sang solo.. Cant seem to find the duet version of the MV sigh.. if i can find it, will post it here... hehehehe...Enjoy ^_^

Puzzles

Yes do try this puzzle out.. Wonder how it works?
Have a nice day ^_^

http://www.gangqin.cn/heart.htm

Another Day In Office

A new day.. lets see, how to start about..? ok start with last nite, i cant sleep, not right until 2am in the morning, i start to doze off.. darn, my tummy grumbles and grinding alot till i cant sleep properly.. really started to feel that my darn life is starting to turn upside down if not worse..
wish i could sleep on till end of the day.. sleep n never wake up.... (-_-)' ZzZzZ

darn everything.... i jus hope to get a new job and learn new things.. preferably linux/networking stuffs.. not visual basic.. i dont want to lose so many things at once.. hv to get a grip and move on.. haha, i hv been telling myself to pull myself together, at times i feel that i hv done it, but at times, i feel that im back to step 1..

previously i will ask, who am i..? now i think i shud ask myself, WHO do i want to be?!? am i that cool to let go? can i face it up? i am begining to hate everyone now, but i hate myself the most..

hm, yeah there is a public holiday on 23rd Oct 2006.. Chulalongkorn Day.. my roomate's colleageus is having a trip to Rayong, somewhere south of BKK.. he invited me, and im still thinking whether to join them or not.. think think think... dont know what kinda entertainemnt is available there..

ya, wonder why i dream so frequent this time, dreamt hving conversation with gal gal.. but cant remember what is the content of the conversation.. maybe in 10 years time, where i can hv deja-vu, then i will remember what is the content.. yeah speaking of deja-vu, it is long i never hv deja-vu.. haha i dont have a 3rd eye, my deja vu usually comes in a form of dream and after sometime, it will happen... know more aboyt deja vu here

aw, there is batch tonite, and friday he is there... i wonder what i could do tonite until the next trip i go back to KL.. what is the best thing to do? when i look out of my office window, there is so less sunshine.. always dark & dull.. rainy days are here to stay lo... bring an umbrella and live with it man... sleep during weekends.. nope hv to exercise.. i dont want to hv heart disease at an early age.. keep my liver & kidney in good working condition.. smelled too much 2nd hand cigarette smokes n too much alcohol... hv to rework on my schedules.. hope for a new working environment soon.. did really thought of migrating when i am older.. migrate to a better place

p/s: sorry for hating everyone, just litereally, pls do not take it seriously... i hope not to offend anyone.. cheerio

Toyota Avanza 1.5G Is Here

Finally Toyota Avanza 1.5cc is here after rumours have been circulating for sometime.. and it is about time..a 1.3cc engine mated in Avanza is just too small if not practical.. a 1.5cc is more likely for it's size..Avanza 1.5 is only available in Malaysia at the moment.. it is likely that Indonesia will have the same..Thailand does not really have a market for Avanza, as previously mentioned.. it is just a marketing ploy..I am in Thailand for more than a year, and i can count all of my 10 fingers on how many Avanzas is on the road..

heard that this 1.5cc engine does not come from Toyota's stable, but from Daihatsu.. for more information, do visit Toyota Malaysia or Autoworld Malaysia

This updated version of Avanza comes with dual airbags, ABS, EBD, chrome finishing, and better trim level.

its getting late, have to bath now.. bathing late is not good.. good nite to my dear..

Back in Room 1002 ^_^

woo.. flood near my office, Asok... the main road is flooded.. as cars wade thru the flood waters, u can see waves of water came rushing to the five foot way.. alot of people jus take off their shoes and wade thru.. hehe, but not for me and my colleague, Simon.. so we took an alternative route to our usual dining place, Khun Kung restaurant at Sermit Tower at 7.30pm.. luckily we reach there just in time and have our late dinner.. we saw cars turning into our dining place, all dripping wet with water frm everywhere.. hehe our everywhere means that water is really coming out frm the every part of the car, even the doors.. so we assumed that those cars are filled with water inside..!!!

hm, other than that, my mind is playing tricks on me again.. Mr. Low, hope u will get well soon ^_^.. that is all i wish to say..

yes, 1 more thing, i hv been thinking of selling my laptop after it have serve my purpose... hehe, although mined is considered high specs, nothing does really beats Thinkpad laptops.. tough and durable.. i used to get my hands on my company's Thinkpad and its built quality is very good.. but now it is marketed under Lenovo, after Lenovo bought IBM's PC division.. read more here

Flood Near Asok

Heavy rain today at 4pm-6pm... Heard that some parts of Asok is flooded, nearby Asok's BTS station.. my PM's wife is stuck at that station and informed my PM that it is quite bad.. hope everything is fine..

been busy today, working on a solution for a big problem, i coulndt done it on my own if Aphichat is not here (my project manager to be precise).. i appreciate his help so much.. his composure n patience deserves my utmost respect.. guided me thru, cos im slow.. GREAT MAN!!!

sigh feels that today is very important to me.. i have shown great patience, great coolness, & great 'some-other-things' which i dont know how to describe myself.. haha.. well there is nothing to shout about, but at least, i can give a good impression to others & not let others worry abt me and my stuffs..

im always on the lookout.. lookout for the next day.. hope to see smthing new.. hope to know some great news.. hope that no tears will be shed for me.. hope that my circle of friends will always be cheerful.. no matter how quiet am i last time, how i performed last time as a friend/partner/son/brother/colleague, i hope to bring some difference to alot of people whom i knew.. bring cheers & joy.. i want to my change direction in life.. serve others the best i can and to those in need..

A Message To My Friends

Well CLK, thanks for you comments.., bugger i dont know that u will ever find my site, i think i will have to move again... hahah... have to find another spot to feel free to express myself.... hey u have to pay me for helping u out by using your name and spread your GOOD name...hehe, maybe u will find your match..who knows huh? ;)

And my dear, thank you for reading.. i hope i can write more so when u feel bored, u can read something to let yourself loose.. this where i should retreat to if i have something to pen in.. of course not just about me, will plan to put some other things like news, current affairs etc... haha

well this may not be a 'water hole' like any other blogs, jus my bla bla bla site.. hahah

thanks..

Oh Its Monday

Its a moderate Sunday (8/09/2006).. so bored & tired.. but then, we went down to have a ping pong session, played badminton (sigh, not a good session as it is very windy) and have chat with our in-house gym instructor, Mr. Pisit.. According to Mr Pisit, its rainning season, so have to becareful..

Later on, we have our dinner at Robinson's food court in the 4th floor.. we never know that there is a 5th floor that have a food court just for the employees of Robinson.. haha, so we sent our missionary, CLK to have a look... hahaha, and he was stopped by a guard stationed there.. we have our laughs when he turn around and ran back to us...

in the end we just settled in Robinson's food court.. I have a plate of rice + 2 fillets + a plate of 'gyoza'.. such a heavy meal.. we just took mooncakes and omochi for lunch... then we just walk around the electical items on sale and look at guitars, wires, phones, speakers etc.. then we headed to Tops supermarket.. bought a bottle of Heineken, Prego spagetti sauce, a Pepsi... hehe, Heineken is for me cos I missed the smell of beer.. Pepsi is for my other colleagues to serve as a mixer for our Johnny Walker's Red Label, left behind by my prevoius roommate, Stanley..
My Heineken is just a small bottle, hehe, not much but it certainly does have some 'kick' in it..
^_^

so the Prego sauce is for my tonight's dinner.. will go back early to have spagetti.. yum yum..
if there is time will go to gym & have a light workout..

oh goodness, its gonna rain soon, can hear thunder and its dark.. no umbrella today, cos get fooled by the sunny morning..sigh hope i can go back early before it rains and have my own dinner served at the comfort of my own room...

gonna have some biscuit and tea soon.. have to eat more since i hv no appetite last month, have to regain some weight and appetite

signing off... Cheerio

Afternoon 7/10/2006

Sigh what a day.. so bored.. My other colleagues, Mr Lam & Simon came to my room and invite us for lunch.. haha, 4 fellas but we cant decide where and what to eat.. haha fools, but funny.. Standing under the sun and discussing where to eat takes 15 minutes of our time.. so here we are back in our own room after our lunch.. well dear is busy working, and may be working tomorrow as well if she cant finish it by today.. poor thing, i really miss her and wish she have lots of rest soon.. i know she is tired, and there is a lot of friends she can depend on for entertainment and company.. hmm, hope she dont get sick and be well all the time.. be strong and with God's will..

Going down to have a ping pong session with my roommate.. I remember I first played a proper ping pong with proper ping pong table with her, right here in Centrepoint. It was such a fun day.. We sweat alot and oh my, she is tired n exhausted.. but we are happy :')
Now every ping pong session I have, reminds me of that very one moment we had before. I do hope that we still can play right here in Centrepoint.. mesmorizing...sweet

yeah i dreamt about us too the night before, chatting and having converstaion with her parents.. sweet.. well thats it for now, have to go down.. its damn boring here..

Sat Morning 7/10/2006

Certain province in Thailand in the North is having flood. I ask some of the Centrepoint staffs, that in the Northen part of Thailnad is bringing in lots of water, possibly frm the mountain borders frm China, Nepal, Thailand.. I got to know that Bangkok might get flooded if it continues like that, cos the Chao Pharaya river is swelling slowly, as the volume increases.. hehe flood in Bangkok, i cant wait to see it man.. but I do hope there wont be flood in Bangkok cos i dont want to get stuck in my hotel and cant get out, and I am sure alot of city dwellers wont want it to happen as it will disrupt their daily lifes..

sigh its a dull day and cloudy.. makes me feel sleepy and tired.. lets plan what to do for today besides working.. ping pong or basketball? hmmm seems good.. BORING

Back in Centrepoint 6/10/06

Aw, just almost the same night as before. The only difference is that, I went to the pool and I actually have the chance to see full moon on such cloudy night. Guess I am lucky. I wanted to talk to my ex, but she is sooooo busy till she cant leave office and right till this moment she is still in office. I dare not disturb her & I tried my best to control myself not to send her a single message that will distract her attention. I just hope that she is not alone in office cos it is not safe. I too do hope that she can go back early. please....

Well, I did actually wants to call her, if she could go back early to celebrate Mid Autumn. Well its not gonna happen :(.. she is in office rushing for her work.. sigh well what can I do? whine? I cant do that, it is her job.. It is really funny, that I cant get to hear her voice and call her. When she needed me the most, I am not there to call.. Now I want to do it... but it looks impossible.. haha what is this? It is some kind of 'repayment'? God thank you.. you have let me feel how she felt for the past months.. i just want to have a simple conversation, why does her work increased so much today? why not another day?

haha, we are already so far away & broken.. now everything is just like pointing to me & telling me that, its all over.. it is like I am trying to swim across a huge, deep & fast moving river to get to her on the other side of the bank.. I still wanna cross the river no matter how tired am i. even if i am exhausted and get washed away by the strong current, i still want to swim on..

Dear Happy Mid Autumn Festival.. And to everyone that I knew, do always spend sometime with your love ones.. nothing is more important than giving & spending precious time with them, you will never regret it..

Good night

p/s: roomate is wathcing 'Devil Wears Prada', but the quality is very bad.. my roomate got cheated that it is a DVD-9 quality movie, but it turns out that this fella recorded it in a cinema..

Mid Autumn Fest In Thailand

Wow 1 year again have past.. As of today, 6 Oct 2006, it is the 15th day of 8th Lunar month which translate to Mid Autumn Festival. It is celebrated among all Chinese. Mooncake, a traditionally baked cake and contains lotus paste, is a common entity in Mid Autumn Fest. Lantern too symbolises Mid Autumn Celebration.

Children and elders alike will light up candles and lanterns at night to brighten up the atmosphere. I remember when I am small, we will try to decorate and lit up our front porch and gate with candles.. humongous task, and we did not make it cos it needs lots of candles and my grandfather will have a hard time removing waxes the next morning!! haha

Hm, as time passed, year after year, we dont get to see candles burning the whole night in our neigbourhood.. children at that time were now adults, while teenagers who grew are now either working or staying outside frm their parents.. Now that I am in Thailand, I have missed 2 consecutive year of lantern festival. So tonight I will have to think of something to occupy myself.. haha.. life goes on as people said..

Wish everyone will have an enjoyable reunion dinner with families, have a great time tonite, having mooncakes, litting up candles and lanterns to brighten the environment, and enjoy the breathe-taking sight of the full moon.. Happy Mid Autumn Festival To All!!

p/s: well i hv lit candles & lanterns twice when i am back in KL.. although its a short stint and not on the exact day, still it is a good one, my first mid autumn celebration with my 'girl'.. will give a call to those i missed most today..

Cars

lets talk abt cars.. hey guys like cars. i have been thinking of getting a car by nxt year (actually this year).. but NAP comes out, hehe so lets wait again. there is not much choices to choose, being malaysian is like that. Imported cars cost way too much for an average person to own a car. best is to own Proton or Perodua.

ah let those out for the moment. i dont have a dream car. i wish i could get my dirty little hands on a Beemer (a BMW). any Beemer will do. dont fancy Ferrari actually. Next is Jap sports. A Lancer Evo, Skyline or Subaru WRX would be great.. haha

ok lets get back to reality. For a family car, i would like Toyota, Honda and Nissan.. that would be enough. SUV or MPV would be ideal, although i would want a sedan, but MPV n SUV would really really cater my needs once i hv a family of my own. Sedan is for those who are young at heart.. haha

far frm reality, Perodua is the choice, Myvi. Not very small and it looks nice too. Bravo to Perodua. thinking of getting one as it is not a bad car i think. let's see here is my wish list of cars (based on reality and availability)

Toyota Hilux Vigo (big & mean ^_^)
Innova? (MPV for the family-oriented)
Civic (cool & 1 of the latest car in Msian market)
Sentra (only manual sedan in msian market besides Proton)
City/Jazz (fuel comsumpstion)
Myvi (aiming for that)
Wira (poor man's car but adequate for daily needs)

actually there is more, but this is adequate for me.. no Benz, Bentley, Lexus, Ferrari or high end models at the moment.. haha

Perodua Myvi

Going Back & Dream, 25th Sept 2006

This post is actually carried from Friendster, which I never published in Friendster before. It is written well before 29th Sept:

I just wish to go back immediately.. the wait and pain is just too great to handle.. I know I am being silly thinking so much when i should not, but all of it just comes to my brain.. angry at myself, envy, sad, guilty, confused, feeling sorry, and feels bad all in one package..

But sometimes love will make ppl do things they have never imagined, things that would make your love ones happy, but will cause great pain for ownself.. I am willing to do it.. Just for her.. accept her as my friend and let her have breathing space and let her think and cool down.. i dont want her to endure the pain.. I Love U

Cant sleep on 25th Monday Sept.. I dont know why.. I just cant get to doze off.. just a simple and normal sleep, and i cant even have it.. the whole night, i am just twisting and turning on the bed.. what is so wrong with me? went to toilet numerous times and i still cant sleep.. i feel very cold, very weak and my whole body aches..

not right until 5am, i dreamt.. dreamt of a few people.. me, my girfriend, CLK (roommate), my brother.. 3 of us guys stayed together but we have only one car, and all 3 of us needs to go out at the same time.. we discuss who should take the car.. I need to see my girlfriend, CLK needs to see his parents.. my bro, needs to go out to have group study.. there is some disagreement.. im so fedup.. then my girlfriend called, asking me to take her car which is in a parking lot.. i went out and get the car happily as fast as i can.. but :( there is alot of obstacles along the way.. when i try to get out of the lot, everytime i wana get thru the paying station, it closes.. there are so many paying stations and the guy jus happily closed it down (and in each floor), everytime i reach the paying station.. then the dream ends and i woke up, still wide awake at 5am+.. the dream jus last a few minutes

what does this mean? a message? a hint? i guess i will never get to know what happens next.. i know that there is alot of obstacles in everyone's life.. He the Almighty can just do so much to show us, and the rest is up to US to choose, to choose a path that will lead us into or out of darkness.. I just want "light" to guide me.. i have found a beautiful "light" once and it guide me to happiness and joy.. Now i just want to go back and find MY "light" i once have.. i want to be the source of energy for MY "light", be your HOPE and be your LOVE.. I am so far away from MY "light".. I want to go back, go back, go back..........................

Back In Thailand 4th Oct 2006

Woke up with a heavy heart in the morning. Wish I could stay in KL abit more longer. Dont wish to leave so soon after I got back from Bangkok.

Mixed feelings is here to haunt me again, once I board AirAsia bound for Bangkok. I just want to know what is gonna happen soon and a month from now.. My mind is playing tricks on me.. Sometimes I wonder if what I hv said and did for the past few days is right or wrong.. I cant differentiate it.. How would she think of me? how would her parents think about me? how about her family members? after all of this, i might have make her parents wonder, the same goes to my parents..

I felt that I am born to this world for no reason at all.. I bring chaos & discomfort to those I loved most.. I really regret for what i have done.. I want my someone special to be happy and be with her through thick & thin.. I just want some support & a chance to mend what i have done.. and to get my special someone back..

Can I get her back is still a very big question mark.. I cant stop myself frm thinking about her..
cant stop myself from looking at those photos that we took.. her smiling face is the best thing in life that I could never fail to look at.. such simple thing can make me smile and remember those time that we have spent together.. I even read all of the greeting cards that she gave to me..
all those messages and words that she pen in is so touching and nice..

all those pictures remind me of how she behaves and be her own little angel.. it shows the brightest and softer side of her.. caring, soft, polite, understanding.. ^_^

I really hope and pray hard that no one will put their hands into our relationship.. no intervention from whoever.. i dont want anyone to spoil everything that we have shared throughout the years.. I want to do it on our own.. i pray that we will be back together and give her anything that I could offer.. giving happiness to someone is a great thing to do, it is a big honour.. there is no complains and sacrificing some part of our ownself for others is called love..
it is not a stupid thing to do.. when there is problem, i dont want to trouble her.. cos she is my little angel, and as a guy, i shud take everything and lift all problems frm her and frm everyone i love.. If I could take troubles away from my loved ones, I am damn happy.. ^_^

In my 23 years of life, the most defining moment to date is graduating, working and falling in love.. parents spent their whole life grooming their children and put hopes in them. then i will feel that i have done part of it. and the rest is up to me to walk, time to get involve with things and make some serious decisions.. haha that is the most important chapter in my life, for the first time in my life, i did actually bring some kind of happiness to someone, work and bring some changes to SIIS, getting into the real world.. a young naive kid making some impact ^_^

It is never really easy when u try to step into a world of adulthood.. handling pressure, juggling time, and sorting priorities is such examples.. it is different from studying, where it is a dog eat dog world.. it is a cold, harsh and unkind world out there.. people fighting to achieve their dreams and climbing up the mountain of society.. u will get to see office politics, u will see how people move around and how they handle difficult customers.. learnt how to portray yourself and get to see great people doing great things.. Life is really not a bed of roses..

you know everything happened so fast for me, so fast that i cant catch what is really happening at times.. as a thinking ape, alot of things does really brings up some sense and will make u think seriously.. for instance, to face with a challenger whereby i cant really stand up and put up a brave fight, makes me feel kinda useless.. it is like fighting a war with no horses, chariots, spears and men.. at times i am not sure who is wrong or right.. at times i wonder, who can dictate who is right who is wrong.. maybe what we can dictate is needs..

after more than a year staying away from love ones, i really feel that loniness is slowly creeping towards me and a certain kind of bond is beginning to loosen.. it is so hard to face it alone.. only with colleagues at my side, it is not enough.. sometimes we will resort to drinking.. sigh.. it is not a good solution as it is bad for health.. when i think of going back, i was so enthusiast, but when i reach back at home, i realise that i dont have much time.. time time time...

TIME & TIDE WAITS FOR NO MAN

this quote is indeed very true.. whoever pen this quote is indeed a wise man..

its funny how God arrange things for us.. in a very unexpected way, he will give what u wish for, but of course not in a straight foward way.. with much twist and a few 'unfortunate' events ^_^
then u will get what u wished for.. what we can do is hope for the best to come.. ^_^

Love & Tears Is The Greatest Bond Between People,
Lessons In Life Is The Greatest Gift & Guide For A Person,
Time Is The Most Precious Thing For Every Soul That Walks The Earth,
Communitation & Trust Is The Medium That Brings All Of Us Together

Kuala Lumpur 29th Sept-4th Oct

Oh gosh, it is just so nice to be back in KL. I dont know how to start. OK, let's start with Suvarnabhumi Airport. Gosh it's a big airport, very much like KLIA. This is my experience, our check in counter is on the very end side of the airport. But, our gate is on the other end of the airport. It took us 12minutes to reach our gate, and just in time too!

Well there is a lot of mixed feelings when I board the aircraft. Advertisements from Celcom, and the Head stewardness's name, all brings a certain kind of memory to me. It makes me think, till I reach LCCT. On touchdown, I am hoping for something. Something I wish to see and meet, but chances are slim. So there is not much hope. But then God, did manage to give me an answer, in an unexpected manner. I get to meet up with someone, just after i pass immigration! Isnt it great and will makes you wonder how God might arrange something just for you in a very funny way.

I felt that I am never the same person I am before. I am wondering, how would i spent my next few days in KL, especially on Sat. Sat is good, but not as what i have planned. Still it is a good Saturday coupled with good weather. Just cool and nice.

Me and my friend meet up on Sat. We have a really good chat. We discuss alot things. We agreed to have dinner at my place, agreed to be my someone special for that last day. I appreciate that very very much, being so understanding after what we have gone through. We light up some candles and lanterns and enjoy the breeze air that is blowing out the candles that night. We stand outside for an hour, chatting & lighting candles. That is one moment that I can never ever forget for the rest of my life. After an hour, I sent my special someone back.

Sunday I went to pay my ex's granny a visit. There, i could find some comfort and a close friend to talk to, cos she is worried abt me. Really thanks Aunt Alby, for those comforting words of yours. Those words meant alot to me, worth more than gold. That is the longest chat record between Aunt Alby & me ^_^

I stayed for dinner, and again, we light up some candles and lanterns. And of course, the little cousin, Fun Fun is wide awake before dinner time. That is one little jewel that I can never forget too. She is one young active gal..! We have an enjoyable night.

Too bad, there we did not take any pictures as memories.. but it will remain in my heart forever.. fond memories will never be forgotten

Good Time Files When Everyone Is Happy,
Good Time Burns, And What Is Left
Is Just Ashes Of Memories
^_^